is the best drama/movie I've ever watched... If you haven't watched it, and you would like to see how a young girl of just 15 years old suffers from the cruel clutches of Spinocerebellar Atrophy; her whole life changing from the crippling disease. It was so very touching; making viewers happy for the simple fact of life...

...and after watching; I've had a thought...

Is it really okay to just go on with what I want to do?

Should I not help others in the world instead; instead of blindly stumbling into something I won't be able to help a single person in?

It's a hard question; isn't it?

The heart breaking story of Aya Ikeuchi; based on the true story of the suffering of Aya Kiito truly makes one think about life; and I highly recommend you guys on dA to watch it (Silentregrets.com is a good place to get the drama or movie; your choice. ) The story truly grabs out at you; clutches your heart; as you follow the life of Aya Ikeuchi, absorbed into her world.

I used to think that my world was hard enough as it was; until I discovered this. Spinocerebellar Atrophy; a disease in which the neurons in the cerebellum slowly degenerate and disappear gradually over time. The patient first has troubles with his or her legs; slowly moving to the arms; rendering the patient bound to a wheelchair. As the disease slowly progresses, speech and eating becoming harder and harder until finally, the patient is restricted to a bed.

Watching how disabled people are so cruelly treated by some; hard glances shot in their direction; harsh words spearing their hearts, makes me want to become a better person and appreciate life for what it truly is.

This might look like just some crazy rambling; but One Litre Of Tears has truly affected me, and I think if you watched it too; maybe you can learn something too.

EDIT - I just remembered to add a to do list otherwise I'll forget what the heck I'm doing on here

OKAAY. (LOL MASSIVE ASIAN INFLUENCE D: )

To do in the following year -
Black and White Realism
Mini portraits of the 13 members of Super Junior
Mini portraits of Dong Bang Shin Ki members
Mini Portraits of Brown Eyed Girls
Portrait of the Wondergirls - Nobody
Mini portraits of ShinEE
Mini portraits of Big Bang
Finish that picture of Princess Diana that's been lying around for ages...
Family picture of the Ikeuchi family from One Litre of Tears
Portrait of SooYoung for someone's birthday present
Portrait of Aya and Haruto together

Painting - Realism
Portrait of the nine SNSD girls on canvas (like the Choi SooYoung one D: long time to go...;w
Portrait of Kang Hanna from 200 Pound Beauty (Jenny or old Hanna...hmmm)
Three Canvas landscape pictures
Three random celebrity portraits
Get my realism good enough to do a family portrait of my family

Bookmaking
Finish at least 20 more pages of the Arcadia storybook (teehee)
Finish at least all three song visual translations of Only Human, Konayuki and Sangatsu Kokonoka from One Litre of Tears (long time to do...eep)

Manga -
Draw at least 30 picture sketches practicing anime style characters in a wide array of poses
GET THOSE COPICS OUT AGAIN AND UUUSE THEM
At least 5 full Copic pictures would be really nice to finish the year off
Draw at least three characters from Bleach, Darker than Black, Ghost Hunt, Rozen Maiden and Bakuman
At least 10 group shots of two or more people (no more singles Bryan...==w=
Learn how to be able to simplify form and shape of various objects (plants and such)
LEARN TO CELL-SHADE??
Learn to try and screentone?
Get ze tablet out again

Sorry for huge spam list; must self motivate haha.