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Far out. Give me a break, won't you?

Sat May 16, 2009, 5:12 AM
If you're wondering whom I'm directing this at, don't worry. It's no one on dA.

In fact,

They're my parents. (and if you want to excuse yourself from a load of emo ranting and shit, don't bother reading. Excuse my language. And please don't think bad of me because I'm ranting about my parents. I love them. Sometimes, their "love" can be very hurtful.).





ARRRRGH.

This is so fucking unfair. Why bother raising me up to just dump shit on me over and over again? Okay, one or two lectures I can deal with, but WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WHEN I TRY TO DO WHAT YOU SAY, AND YOU GO LECTURING AGAIN AND AGAIN???

So, basically, you expect me to just absorb everything? And not butt in like a good child, always listening to their parents, never able to get to express their opinions because over the years, whenever they try to reason, they just tell you to shut up and respect your elders.

In the eyes of my dad, everything I do is wrong. EVERYTHING. I go and make my mum a nice lunch and coffee, and then my dad comes home and goes "What the hell have you done today, huh? All you care about is wasting time!". What a grand entrance, one may say. And look at HIM. I haven't sunken low enough to point out all the crap he does, but fucking hell, at least set a fucking good example, won't you?

So you go and make all these hypocritical jibes and stuff, won't you?

And then, when I'm doing homework in the study, my younger brothers come in wanting to play, so I lock the door. Next, he comes shouting at me to open the door, and just lets them in, asking me "Why aren't you doing work instead of wasting time? Like you ever do anything useful!".

That just really cut deep.

All those times they ask "Why are you sad? Did you break up or something equally stupid?", I just want to tell them. But I can't. They're my parents, afterall, and they pay the bills, food, clean the house, work, make my life "happy". But no, like the supposedly nice and quite child I was supposedly raised up, I smile and say I'm fine.

Because I've given up.

No matter what they say, they won't listen, so what's the point?

They want me to shut up?
Would they rather they have raised a doll, still and lifeless, never getting into any trouble?

I've got feelings too, you know.

I WANT to love my parents, and I WANT them to be happy, but at least can they show that they care for me once in a while as well?

And yes, I'm fucking crying.

Get over it, I cry.

And shit. It's 10pm, and I've freaking spent the whole day doing nothing, and exams are next week, and I don't give a shit about them any more, nor do I care about stupid coaching homework that is fucking stupidly hard and fucking one grade above what I'm supposed to be doing, and my parents fucking expect me to still get top marks.

And if you're wondering why I haven't uploaded anything, I don't have the heart to, after getting cut up about so many things so often.

  • Mood: Defeated

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heyy its bryan!

sunny here from japan if you dont remember
LOL how could i not remember? XDDD

XD I still remember your awesome haircut a few weeks back.8DDDD

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Thank you for the watch~ :thanks:
You're very welcome! Keep up the excellent work!

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thanku for faving :)
You're welcome, it was an awesome cosplay!

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hi arty dude! ^o^

hows exam wkk?

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really really bad.

maths tomorrow. doom.

next week - two fat ass PE assignments, VA bookmark, Science test, Science bookmark, and two fat ass pastel pics for VA. >_<

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lol, oww.... x_x

GOOD LUCK ARTYDUDE!

=D!

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thanks for the fav (*O*)b

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yes, i've joined the club *watercolorists *Traditional-Artists *ucod *ThePencilClub
You're very welcome! Keep up the fantastic artworks! Both your traditional and digital works are amazing, and the level of details and the amounts of effort you put in are awe-inspiring! :)

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Much thanks for the sudden watch XD

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You're very welcome! (: Your cosplays are wonderful, especially your recent Magna Carta cosplay photos!

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Haha, much thanks. XD More to come!~

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hay you have a picture up now....koololo

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Art is what you make it.....
yup! XDDD

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Thanks for the watch...

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You know i get it, people looking for ways to fill the holes.
But they want the holes, they want to live in the holes.
And then they go nuts when someone else throws dirt into their holes. CLIMB OUT OF YOUR HOLES PEOPLE!
Greg House, eps. 19, season 2.
You're very welcome! :)

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You're very welcome! Your pastries are absolutely wonderful, and they look exquisite! :)

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Thanks for the fav on "Teto".

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You're very welcome! Your watercolour pieces are so inspiring! :)

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